don’t tell me your successes

i know, i know, it sounds kinda bitchy. but… just… don’t tell me your successes, don’t tell me please. it just makes me depressed. it just reminds me of how far behind you i am. and it gives me the feeling that i’ll never be able to catch up… that we’ll never be on equal footing again.

i feel like i’ve wasted my life

 

there’s so so much that i should have done sooner

 

so much stuff that i should have done better

so much stuff that i shouldn’t have done

 

that’s in the past now, i do know that. but i’m in the past too

so far behind you

and i dont know if it would be better to catch up

struggle and struggle and TRY and maybe MAYBE catch up…

 

or just give up